3.0version

And again, I got an itchy feeling to write...

The realization, the experiences I gained. 

Few months ago, I became hopeful of something exciting. I thought this would be the fulfillment of a dream, but then God said, "My daughter, it is still not the right time."  I made some arrangements, the efforts I had just to reach out. I must admit, it was frustrating and disappointing. 

But things turned out to be God's plan for me to go home and spend few days with the people that really matters most. My role as a Nurse now became a vital role in the family, to take care of Mom for a few days. I came home with a heavy heart, worries, fears starting to fill my mind. I just prayed... 

Truly,  family is your everything. Time spent with them is worth every second. And I am just thankful I am 3.5 hrs away from home. That I could easily book a ticket and be with them. The 5 days I spent, it was very meaningful. GOD is faithful, sovereign, mighty. HE answered prayers for your best interest, for the growth of your faith and maturity.  

I get to bond with them, the moment you feel you are the only single person in the family, that most of your siblings already have their own, just got married, and almost getting there. That you are becoming the responsible TITA to your nephew, taking care of him the whole day and even sleeping beside him just like his own mother, taking care of your sick parents, deciding minor things for the family. I sometimes miss the bonding with my siblings before, but the situation is already different and I totally understand it. I am truly happy with their status right now and also with what I have. I know God is giving me a special role, a task that I am accepting wholeheartedly that I know I will not regret, a daughter who takes care of her aging parents, a sweet sister to her siblings, a spoiler Tita. 

I know most of you will be worried and most of my relatives are already asking the question. 

"When are you going to settle down?!" 

That question I could not answer anymore, it turned out I am no longer interested in meeting new people, in dating. It's not that I became cynical about relationships, about love. I just surrendered everything, I leave everything up to HIM, of what His plans for me. I just became excited of what's in store for me in the future. 

I just enjoy what I do right now. A true happiness just being yourself. Keeping your promises to Him and yourself, always reminded of your worth. I know God is with me, why should I worry?! 

Sharing the captured moments. I will see you soon my loves! :)