SINGLE... Blessedness :)

         A single person is someone who is not in a relationship or is "unmarried". The term single in its common usage is often referred to someone who isn't involved in any type of romantic relationship, whether it would be dating, engagement, or marriage. However, in some cases single people are not interested in marriage, domestic partnership, or other types of formal, committed relationships.People may remain single for a variety of reasons, including: financial and emotional or physical health issues, stress in the family, time constraints, education, career, personal preferences, advanced age, social fears or love-shyness and even living in a society or locality where there aren't enough people of the sex one is attracted to. (Wikipedia definition)

         Most of the single people (especially my age) can relate to this. We are all finding that special person in our lives, we all long to be happy, dreaming to be in a relationship, to cuddle, dreaming to have that perfect wedding *someday*.  But something between those things, there's a fear inside me that frightens me to have that someone, I tend to worry too much if someone is getting interested with me, I guess because I came from a broken relationship, not once but twice.  I am afraid to give the full trust again, to fall in love and later on get hurt, that's the most I worry about, the idea of getting hurt again. Sometimes I am thinking, do I really long for this? Do I really need to be in a relationship again? Am I really decided to give up my freedom, Am I really ready for that?! Those questions popped up in my mind when I had my conversation with my close friends this evening, whom one of them is also single. That makes me wonder. I know I am very certain about what I really like, of my goals in life, of what I have in my mind about the future, there's just uncertainty about one thing and I really don't know what it is......... 

          Being single is not really being alone, in fact it's a blessing. Believe me, it is. You have all the freedom you need, you don't need to have the approval of someone when you go out, when you go for an out of town trips with your friends, or simply going home late at night. You have all the time with your family, friends and most especially with yourself. You can do everything you want but at least you must know your limits too. This time of my life is the one I am savouring, cause I get to spend most of time with myself,  pampering, do things that will make me look and feel better, to discover things, to mingle with different people, to buy things for myself, not being dependent to someone, to spend most of my precious time with my family, friends, and with God; which I didn't have the chance to do before. I came to a point in my life now that I can truly say I have a deeper faith, I have a relationship with Him. That makes me happy, makes me feel complete, makes me secured about myself that eventhough I don't have special someone in my life, I don't worry, I don't feel I am alone. That's what I called grace. 

           I am not saying I don't need a relationship anymore, it's just that I became so particular about someone I really want, I am just being careful, to guard my heart. Maybe the time will come if I am also ready to enter a relationship, in God's perfect time, I am just praying for His plans for me. :) 

"Grace to all of you who love our Lord Jesus Christ with love that never ends." (Ephesians 6:24 NCV)