Im not a girl, and YES I am a woman :)

           My childhood days describe me as who I am now. Cheerful, fun-loving and friendly. I used to be like the most frisky child among my siblings, like the boyish type, that's why my Mom and Dad called me "Tonton" As I grow older, I developed a character of my own, I had my own perceptions, views and opinions in life. I was just careless, a happy go lucky, playful.  A girl with full of hope, love, dreams. 

           In my teenage years, I became more conscious about myself and I admit I nursed my inferiority complex for a long period of time. I was the shy type kind of girl, the anti-social, I only have few friends on my list. I never see myself as an attractive girl; never in my entire teenage years. 

            Somewhere in between the passing decade, something has changed. 

            I experienced to love and be loved in return, those days were exciting and yet the heartbreaking. For the first time, I experienced the excruciating pain. Inevitable and unbelievable. One lesson I learned; People do come and go. Every people you meet in your life always has a purpose, to give us lessons, experience that we will treasure for the rest of our lives. They may give you the most memorable moment and the most heartbreaking but one thing's for sure, It will mold you to a better person, a stronger one. Believe me, you will later on appreciate the experience. 

             Yes, I am 28 years old, and I am proud to say that. I became matured with the life's lessons. I am now a woman full of compassion and love, who is ambitious, confident, independent, a strong willed person, considerate, a person who doesn't let my insecurities affect my personality, someone who already knows her self worth and value, I developed a self respect that I could be proud of. <credits to the people who guided, inspired and prayed for me>

           "A girl is attracted to boys. A woman is attracted to men. Now, this has nothing to do with the actual age of a person. I’m referring to maturity, life vision and stage of life. In fact, some people regardless of their age, will never really grow up."

         

         My perceptions in life also became different, when it comes to love, in choosing and finding the right guy. I don't know if you will call it choosy or I always see through the physical but I am looking for someone who still has that magic, someone who will make me feel the butterflies in my stomach, cheesy as it is but someone who will knocks me off my feet. I am a woman who wants a man who is responsible, family oriented, a man who plans for his future and working towards to achieve it, someone who is honest with his intentions, who knows how to respect a woman, a man of integrity who always mean what he says, most especially a man of God, a man full of faith, someone I can share my growing faith and love for Christ. I got tired of playing games, to seek attention to someone who is not willing to give their own time, their commitment. 

"A boy plays games. A man doesn’t.''

       

I am still praying for that right person, to guard my heart.

Proverbs 4:23 Above all else, guard your heart for everything you do flows from it.

Deep within me I am someone who has old soul but still kid at heart :)